2/21/00  a little over 2 months

Well I was suposed to have my 2 month post op apt today.
But I got tied up at the school (yikes) with the kids principal and
it wasn't one of those meetings you can dart out of if ya know
what I mean. I hate it, I want to get in and get my progress noted.
I can't post my wonderful loss because of my policy on using the Dr's
scales, for official losses. but I do know that it's less than 195 and more than
180 LOL that's a pretty broad range of #'s but that way I wont be let down
when i pop on those dr scales with shoes on.  Mardi gras is comming up
I am excited because my brother will be coming down to stay with us. It is on
Feb 7, and thats only a couple weeks away it will be 2 days short of 3 months post
op for me and I know I will be looking good.  I want to take a minute to stress
that I can not express how wonderful I feel.  I feel fantastic !!! Infact I can't
remember feeling this good since I had children. yes that long ago. I don't ever get
from regular activity, my endurance is picking up, I can go for miles and miles on
the bike and treadmills without feeling like I have an elephant on my chest.
My husband takes me dancing every weekend, I have always loved to dance
and we used to go about 1 time a month, but I always got in a crappy mood
in the getting dressed stage, I couldn't find anything to wear that looked
appropriate to me. it wasn't the clothes, it was that I expected a miricale,
then I would sweat so perfusly from dancing that I would have to order napkins
and cool down several songs prior to dancing again. Now I get out there and
dance 3 or 4 songs in a row, I get hot I sweat but it's not a water fall, I love it.
Now everyone says they can see the differance LOL about time huh?
I can definately feel the differance.  Yesturday I wore a pare of skorts
that I haven't worn in atleast 7 years, thank godness I am not trying to
be some sort of fashion plate LOL.   I still have not bought clothes I wont
until I get under 185, that way I know I will be able to wear them a bit
longer. I did go out and purchase 1 little outfit. It was a skirt and shirt
set, I got it home and found out much to my dismay that the shirt
was a large and the skirt was a medium. Thank the stars it fit.
yes it fit, FAINT !!  The look reminded me of an old country saying
30 lbs of manure in a 5 lb bag, but hey it fit darn it LOL.
My inches haven't changed that much at all since my last measurement.
I will go ahead and post them today,  I have to buy film for my camera
because those webcam pictures just aren't all that good. But I will still
get some up there within the next week or so for everyone to laugh at.
Take care thats all for now.

HAPPY MARDI GRAS

03/06/00 POST OP JUST 3 DAYS SHORT OF 3 MONTHS

Well I am just a couple days short of 3 monthstomorow is Mardi Gras and my life has
been sooo busy it's unbelievable.  #1 I had my 2 month check up and I was down 57lbs at
that time. I am now around 180. which would put me over 60lbs lost in less than 3 months.
WOW what a mirical to me!  I started working 2 differant jobs at once. Plus both of
my little ones are in scouts, (girl and cub). Then ofcourse we still have the business.
Needless to say I have little to no time to myself, but it's fun I am enjoying it.
I haven't heard from Jill in almost a month. I have called and emailed but she too got 2 jobs.
Shannans house sold and the new people are moving in (sniff).
I went and bought some clothes this past weekend some were 14's and some were 12's.
What a great feeling.  I am buying a role of film tonight for mardi gras tomorow and so a
new pic should be up in about a week.  The webcam pics I have up there just aren't that good.
I was hoping to be under 180 by mardi gras I guess I will know when I wake up tomorow.
There are some major changes. The way people, strangers treat and talk to you.
It has been so long since I was "a thinner person" that I didn't even notice the change
now its obvious, while stuck in a traffic jam 2 days ago, a man next to me , tried to
stay next to me and smile and flirt blatenly the entire jam, it was like 45 minutes,
it was shameless, I was blushing so bad, but it felt really good, I couldn't wait to tell
my hubby LOL.  Then in the store, I am standing there looking at sugar free popsicles
and this stranger (quiet good looking) walks up and says, oh I love nutty buttys don't you?
and then stands there talking about everything under the moon.  Now before he would have
just quickly grabbed them for fear the larger me would have taken them all. How odd
that we are so stero typed HUH?  I saw a close friend I haven't seen in almost 6 months
she is the "supermodel type" she didn't recognize me, and when she did, she just started
screaming, oh my god you look amazing.  I guess people can see the differance now huh?
But the major thing for me is the way I feel.  Yesturday at a parade with my kids
I walked over 4 miles with no problem never out of breath legs didnt' hurt, it was so
wonderful. My 10 year old daughter said her side hurt from walking too much I just
laughed.  I have told everyone at my new job about my surgery,  (they are all thin) and
one man asked did it work? I thought this was odd? So i responded well what do you
think? he said I don't know I didn't know you before.  I didn't really know how to take it.
But since no one understands it, I guess I couldn't expect him to know that you had to be
100lbs overweight to have surgery and I am obviously not 100lbs overweight anymore.
LOL. In the begining I had a problem with people knowing, know I will tell anyone
and their dog LOL, because it was a good thing for me.  It hasn't been easy
I am not going to lie, it has been some serious life changes, and some hard mental work
it's a new life and I love living it, I am not longer existing to eat, I know only eat to exist.
Well I have a ton of stuff to get done, but like I said hopefully I will have some photos
comming up for everyone in the next week.

3/15/00 Happy St Patty's Day (3 months and 6 days)
OK WELL I AM HOME FROM WORK DUE TO A PROBLEM WITH MY INNER EAR, THAT SUCKS.
IT SCARED ME THOUGH I MUST SAY BECAUSE I WAS DIZZY AND LIGHT HEADED FOR 3 DAYS REAL
BAD AND I THOUGHT IT WAS MY BLOOD SUGAR OR BLOOD PRESSURE SINCE BOTH HAVE DROPPED
SO MUCH SINCE SURGERY. BUT ALAS IT WAS NEITHER I AM FINE, OTHER THAN THE EAR THING.
MY SURGEON IS SO GOOD TO ME THEY BEEPED HIM AT 8AM AND HE WAS IN SURG SO THE NURSE
CALLED ME ASAP, HEATHER AND DIANE ARE WONDERFUL I JUST CANT KEEP RELATING HOW LUCKY
I AM TO HAVE SUCH A GREAT WLS PROGRAM WITH SUCH A WONDERFUL TEAM. ACCORDING TO
MY NEKIE WEIGHT TODAY I CALCULATED MY BMI AND I AM NO LONGER OBESE. MY BMI TODAY 28.5
THAT OFFICIALLY NOCKS ME OUT OF THE OBESE RANGE AND INTO THE OVERWEIGHT RANGE.
I AM CALCULATING THAT BY MY 31ST BIRTHDAY (JULY 30) I WILL BE IN THE HIGH NORMAL RANGE
AND THAT IS WHERE I WANT TO STAY.  I DONT WANT TO BE ALLEY MCBEAL, I WANT TO BE ME
BUT FIT, I LOVE MY CURVACIOUS FIGURE AND DONT WANT TO LOOK LIKE A YOUNG BOY, THEREFORE
I AM HOPING TO END UP AROUND 145 OR SO.  DONT GET ME WRONG IF I ENDED UP AT 155 I WOULDN'T
BE AT ALL UPSET.   I TOOK SOME TIME TO REDO THE FLOCK OF ANGELS, WLS SITE. IT HAS A
NEW LOOK AND NEW RECIPE SECTION WHERE PEOPLE CAN ADD THEIR OWN RECIPES. I HOPE
I AM NOT OPENING A CAN OF WORMS BY LETTING PEOPLE SUBMIT THERE OWN, I DON'T
WANT TO SEE A RECIPE FOR DEEP FRIED CHEESBURGERS ON THERE AND HEAR OF PEOPLE
GIVING IT A TRY OR DOUBLE SUGAR CHEESCAKE FOR CRYING OUT LOUD.  BUT HOPEFULLY
IT WILL WORK OUT AND THE MEMBERS WILL PUT IT TO GOOD USE.  IT IS HARD FOR ME TO FATHOME
THAT I AM NOT FAR FROM WHERE I WANT TO BE AS FAR AS WEIGHT. IN JUST 3 MONTHS I AM
ALMOST THERE.  I KEEP WAITING FOR IT TO SLOW DRASTICALLY AND WHEN IT DOES I WILL
PROBABLY JUST GO CRAZY, BUT I HAVE TO KEEP TELLING MYSELF THAT I  HAVE DONE SO
WELL AND I AM SO MUCH HAPPIER NOW WITH MYSELF AND HEALTHY I CAN'T STRESS THAT
ENOUGH. I FEEL SO GOOD I JUST WANNA KISS MY SURGEON EVERYDAY. I SING HIS PRAISES
EVERYWHERE.   I AM SO EXCITED THIS IS THE FIRST SUMMER I HAVE LOOKED FORWARD TO IN
A DECADE, EVERY YEAR I WISH WE WOULD GET A COLD SNAP, LIVING IN THE SOUTH I DON'T
GET THAT WISH TOO OFTEN.  BUT THIS YEAR I AM ALREADY WEARING SHORTS, AND LOOKING
AT BATHING SUITS. HOW WONDERFUL IT IS TO FEEL "NORMAL" AGAIN.  I AM IN NO WAY
SAYING THAT I HAVE THE PERFECT BODY OR THAT IT LOOKS FLAWLESS. IT IS MY BODY,
WITH THE SIGNS OF AGE AND WEAR AND TEAR FROM YEARS OF TOTING AROUND ALL THAT
EXCESS WEIGHT. BUT IT IS MY BODY AND IT SERVES ME WELL,  I DON'T HAVE TO BUY
SPECIALTY CLOTHES ANYMORE. AND I FEEL TERRIFIC. WELL I HOPE EVERYONE
HAS A WONDERFUL ST PATRICKS DAY. FOR ALL YOU IRISH OR 1 TIME A YEAR
IRISH OUT THERE AND DID I MENTION MY WONDERFUL SURGEON DR O'CONNELL IS
IRISH?  OH YEAH I GOT MY HAIR PERMED. REALLY TIGHT, THE PIC ON THE FRONT PAGE
IS OUT THERE WITH THE NEW HAIR. HAVEN'T HAD ANY LOSS AS OF YET INFACT MY
HAIRDRESSER SAYS MY HAIR SEEMS HEALTHIER THAN PRIOR TO SURGERY. THIS IS
A GOOD THING.  WELL EVERYONE HAVE A GREAT DAY.

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